Money, Money, Money

Okay, for those of you that know me really well, you know that I have never been a good steward of my finances. I have had a money problem most of my life. As the years have gone by, it has got worse and I take full responsibility for it. I have done some pretty bad things because of my money issues, such as lying to my husband, my parents and to myself. It is so true that the LOVE of money is the root of all evil. I guess you can say I have a love/hate relationship w/ money. I love it when I have it and hate it when I don't. I look back and I see how much money I have wasted over the years and I probably could send at least one of my kids to college!

My parents have bailed me out more times than I can count and If it wasn't for them, I would be out in the street. I have literally made my dad cry because of the messes I have gotten myself into. That broke my heart to see what I have done to him. For that I am truly sorry.

Last year I was diagnosed as bi-polar. My doctor says even though that's what I am I can still be normal. People are under the misconception that because you are bipolar you are crazy. I know for a fact that I am not crazy yet.(lol) I will though be on meds for the rest of my life, partly because of it being hereditary and partly because of anxiety. One of the actions of being bipolar is over spending,impulse shopping, the need to have money and a bunch of other things. I am not saying all this to justify my problem but to know that there is I reason that I do what I do. In the last week, I have faced the fact that I can't have the control of the money in my family. I have finally given that responsibility to Marvin. I made him open up a separate account and I am going to close up our other account so I can't have access to it unless I go through him first. When you help someone who is an alcoholic, you take the alcohol away, I have a money problem so I am taking the money away from myself. I have a loving, supportive husband who will do anything for me and I wouldn't be here if it wasn't for him.

It's going to be hard and I may be a bit hard to deal with at home but I know that my family is there to support me, to love me and to pray for me.

That's what's on my heart today. Thanks for listening!!

Pep Band

Matthew plays the snare drum and joined the pep band at school. Last Friday, he marched in the Homecoming Parade for Allen Park High School for the first time. Marvin and I were so excited. My parents came to watch him and Malinda and Tyler were there and so was Jennifer and the kids. (They didn't just come for Matthew:)

When he came around the corner I took pictures while Marvin videoed. Matt saw us and gave a small smile, the kind like he was embarrassed but glad to see us there. I got a little teary eyed, I was so excited and proud!!! Marvin ended up following him all the way down Champaign! Do you think he was proud too!?! It was a lot of fun. Here are some pics.